Struggling

Wow!  I started this new Bible study.  I have seen some weak areas in my life.  I have admitted to God some of those struggles...fears, worries, sins.  And I am struggling...asking God, "Why."  I am trying to understand the what and the why...and I am not able to...and I am upset.  "It's not fair.  We just came off a couple of huge trials...I am in the field of grace right now...I am not ready to move on yet...I still feel that weakness..."  But God has decided otherwise.  He knows the plans He has for me...but I guess it is not important to Him that I know the why.  "I feel like I could handle all this better if I just understood what He is trying to accomplish."
Have you ever said that?  I have...again this week...several times.
It is that human control factor again.  "It is not fair."  "Why..."  "There is nothing I can do..."
BUT PRAY!
"Casting all your care upon Him...for He careth for you."
God doesn't need my help.  He doesn't need to hear me whine.  He is in control...even in the hurts of life.
I have struggled all weekend with these thoughts and tears have come and gone.  I think I forgot for a short time as I wallowed in my worry and fear of the situation.  It happens when our focus turns to the circumstances and grievances.
God reminded me last night.  Every single song in our evening service...gripped my heart...got my attention...and focused my mind back on His love for me...His struggling child.
Opening chorus:  Nothing Is Impossible
Hymn 1:  In Times Like These
Hymn 2:  Day By Day
Offeratory:  Amazing Grace
Hymn 3:  We Have An Anchor
Hymn 4:  Jesus Never Fails
Sometimes...you just need to be reminded!  What a blessing we miss when we stay home from church with all our excuses!  If you are struggling...the best place you can go...is to church!  Godly music can refresh your heart.  God's Word can challenge and change your heart.  God's people can encourage your heart.  That can't happen...if you are not there!  And it will be your choice...to continue struggling!