Some days are harder than others!

I spent time in His Word.  I prayed.  I listened to good music.  I have been trusting the Lord and leaning on His everlasting arms.  I suppose you could say "things are good".

But it amazes me how fast I can fall apart with one call, text, email, or post.  All those "good, peaceful feelings" turn into a puddle of tears and questions.  I literally walked around the house looking for things to do to keep busy.  Since the kiddos were outside again...I restarted KNVBC right in the middle of the song "Rejoice In The Lord...He Makes No Mistakes..." and had to go find another kleenex, started supper three hours early, the dishes got done, the floors cleaned, and the laundry folded.  To stop the wandering around the house and in my mind, I finally sat down and paged through the hymnbook.

"Day By Day"

"Be Still, My Soul"

I heaved a huge, relieving sigh as my thoughts began to level off and started another load of wash...just enough time to start diving off into the swirling thoughts again.

I sat down with a book I had started to read earlier this summer by Cary Schmidt, Discover Your Destiny:  Making right choices in a world full of wrong.  He wrote this book with the 15 to 25 year old crowd in mind, but this almost 43 year old has needed the truth presented in this book!  When I picked the book up again yesterday to begin reading, I discovered I was about halfway through it...beginning the chapter on God's Wisdom and then followed by the chapter on Faith.  I read for a couple hours...just to keep my mind focused on the goodness of God in my life.  I cried through several passages...specifically on page 172...

"God is our loving, heavenly Father, and He has spent an eternity conceiving a master plan for our lives (destiny).  We are the children in the back seat of life with scarcely the ability to imagine what God might have in store.  God offers us a "surprise" (by faith) plan that He knows we're going to love, if we just trust Him.  The moment we fully understand His plan we're going to thank Him for all of eternity...God is offering us a perfect will that far exceeds and surpasses the selfish ways for which we fight."

I found myself in such a place...and then there was a "surprise" that just threw me for a loop.

Psalm 32:8

Psalm 16:11

I said out loud, "Ok, God, I'm not going to fight.  I haven't yet and I'm not going to start now!"

Psalm 23 

God's plan for His people has been shown down through the ages.  I can trust Him!

Jeremiah 24:5-7

"God never promises a perfect, problem-free path.  His will includes a vast array of life experiences that range from the pleasant to the painful and everywhere in between.  The difference between God's will and your own is this...Your will might provide temporary joy from time to time...His will provides fullness of joy.  Your will might lead through painful experiences that you must face alone...His will provides strength, provision, security, and love during painful experiences that He foreordains...and in His will...you will have the sustaining peace that He is there, in control, carrying you through, and weaving something good in your life."

All things I have heard before and experienced, but in the midst of a meltdown,

I had to be reminded to think biblically!  It happens! 

Some days...it takes more time to get those thoughts and emotions under control...

and it matters Who you go to for counsel!