Have you ever sat in a preaching service and cried?

There are tears of conviction.  There are tears of happiness.  There are tears of hurt.  There are tears of healing.  There are tears of grief.  Sunday night...there were tears of relief and remembrance.  I needed to be reminded...again...that God is in control.  His will is perfect...however...it can be disturbing.  Our visiting missionary preached out of John 21.  I had never heard a message on this passage...in this way...and I needed to hear it last night!
"We all know Peter had trouble."  He always seemed to learn things the hard way.
Jesus was talking with Peter and He asked Peter the question, "Lovest thou me?" three different times. "Do you think maybe Jesus asked Peter this three times, because Peter had denied Him three times?"  Hmmm...never thought about that before.  How loving and patient Jesus was toward Peter!  How kind Jesus was toward Peter as He taught over and over!  Jesus told Peter some things in this passage that disturbed Peter...and which were part of God's will for his life.  Our missionary spoke of God's general will...that all men might come to repentance and the other steps that follow a life of obedience.  He also spoke of God's specific will...that is unique to each person that is revealed step by step as we follow Him.  "That doesn't mean that life will be conferences and parties...  Even when we are doing what He wants us to do in the way He wants us to do them...there will be things that happen that disturb us.  When we come to the end of our life, the only thing that will matter...did we obey and follow God's will for our life...even when God's will disturbed us and when disturbing things happened as we walked in God's will."
We are once again being disturbed.  I cry to the Lord, "You have our attention...we are listening...we are where You want us right now...doing what You have asked us to do...to the best of our ability..."  And God used our missionary to the Philippines to preach a message out of this passage.  Peter knew ahead of time some of the disturbing things that would come his way...not the specifics...but he knew there would be something.  I am thankful right now not to know the specifics for our life...we know God is working out His perfect will...somehow and someway. 
"I just keep trusting my Lord...as I walk along...I just keep trusting my Lord...and He gives a song..."